
Marissa’s husband was shot and killed. They had a nine-month-old baby girl. Getting the news felt like someone turned off the lights in a windowless room.
“We were starting our life together,” she says. Before Marissa’s husband died, they’d decided to make changes together. Both came from family histories of addiction.
“I remember us saying to each other, ‘We need to do something different,’” says Marissa.
But the grief of losing him sent Marissa back into a spiral. “I started getting into drugs again.”
In the grip of addiction, Marissa went to desperate lengths to keep her daughter cared for — even turning to crime. “I went deep down in a hole,” she says. “I was putting my daughter to bed one night and realized, She’s going to end up losing her other parent if I keep going down this road.”
Marissa wanted help. But she didn’t know how to get it.
After another 15 months in prison, then a six-month stretch of sobriety before relapsing, Marissa couldn’t deny the call to change. Her little girl lived with her husband’s family while Marissa was in prison. It was unsafe and unhealthy. Marissa didn’t want to be separated from her daughter ever again.
“I reached out to my parole officer and said, ‘I need help. Whatever it is, as long as my daughter can come with me, I’m willing to do anything.’”
Marissa found a place she never knew existed — a safe haven at CityTeam for her and her daughter. CityTeam’s restorative long-term program for women and children became a home of healing for Marissa.
“I felt safe,” she says. “When I got here, my cup was filled. I’m getting that sense of home back”
Marissa finally began to unpack her hidden grief. All of her “why” questions — about God, the painful memories of her past, and being a mother — were met with love. Through CityTeam, she had a community holding her up.
“I didn’t have a nurturing mom. I found that here,” says Marissa. “I healed in so many areas in such a short period of time that it gave me my faith back. I started to feel full again. It couldn’t be any other reason but God.”
Today, Marissa is rebuilding from the ground up — getting her driver’s license, finding employment, completing her GED . . . and soon, going back to school for training in drug and alcohol counseling so more women can write their own comeback stories.
“I can be a light for other women,” says Marissa. “CityTeam has always made me feel like I’m worth being here — that there’s a purpose for me. That’s something I’d lost . . . this feeling that I had something to give. I’m grateful to feel love and to give love again. Thank you.”